Having a moment

Right now Iris is having a moment. I am having one of those feelings I often get when I start to think too much. Sometimes these moments I have can make me sad and make me think of things that I thought I had forgotten. I think the solution to this is to try to be happy with the way things are at the moment. Sometimes that is really hard to do when everyone else around you is as happy as can be. It's hard to be happy for them and it's hard when you think that your happiness will never come. I try to be positive but since I've hated the world for sooooooo long, it's getting pretty hard to stay positive all the time. Negativity comes out in me more often than I'd like but I guess its something to work on. Right now I'm just thinking about someone, and some stuff, and it's just really bringing me down. And the fact that most of my songs on my itunes are sad doesnt really help much.