Iris has feelings.

Sam knows what I went through our Junior year of high school and knows how much it has effected me. But one thing I don't think she knows is that ever since then I have felt like something is missing and that I've tried to replace what I feel is missing and have not been successful at it. I feel like I need some closure with the person that my experience happened with but can't seem to tell if thats how i really feel or if its just an easy solution to try to get that someone to see if they still feel something. If closure is what I really do need, I'm not sure how to achieve that. Someone told me that I should talk to the person about it but I kinda don't think thats an opion. I know I said that I'm not sure if closure is what I really need but now that I think about maybe thats why I feel like something is missing. Maybe thats why I can't be civil around this person. Maybe I really do need closure from this whole mess. I feel like in my gut that me and this person still have some unfinished business to work out. I feel like the whole situatio ended badly and since it ended that way it didnt give us a chance to really talk it out face to face. I feel like all it brought us was awkwardness and sadness. Now the big question is am I just crazy for thinking all of this or is it something that is appaernt to everyone and is something we both really need?